Thursday, August 25, 2016

cant wait to go again! we have Emmitt this time!!! LACF!

I can't wait to go to the LA COUNTY FAIR!!!

Last year, we were pregnant....and the whole time we were wondering

how our baby was going to look like....

we  couldn't believe, that this years LA county fair....we would be

parents! and have our baby with us....

Emmitt is going to love it there!

I remember wondering ....what will it feel like, having him here in this world? being a parent?

....He's the greatest thing that has happened to me.

Being a parent is the greatest THING EVER!.....because we got to meet our son, and he's

the most precious soul.

I don't know what i'd do without him.

...I was having another emotional moment last night, and my eyes couldn't stop watering when I would think of Emmitt leaving this Earth, before me. I think just witnessing anything horrible
happening to your child that could potentially take their life away, is EVERY PARENTS WORST NIGHTMARE! I'm terrified of him choking on something- and I wouldn't be able to help him...
or him getting really sick....a car accident....pretty much anything...
I was telling God, that I am so lucky to have Emmitt...
He feels too precious to keep....and that is why I was telling God my fears about him leaving...
because he's too Good to be true. He's perfect. He's literally a part of my soul....
What did I do, to deserve such an Angel?
And then I told God, that I know I shouldn't think that way....because Dreams do come real...
and that there is such a thing, as being happy...and deserving all the happiness that there is...

and said how thankful and grateful I am to have him...

Then was telling him about Emmitts Dad...and how happy he makes me...and how happy I am
to have him in Emmitts and My life. And how we couldn't do a lot of things without him.
His Dad can provide Emmitt with a future that I have always dreamed of having of my own...
and without His Dad....I couldn't provide Emmitt with a lot of things...
If it were just Emmitt and I.....I would be struggling to even get us an apartment...maybe
even a room...he wouldn't have a lot of things.
Emmitts blessed to have a hardworking Dad like him....he's definitely someone to look up too...
He's a great Dad, and I know, will always be.

:]